Now that I have your attention, I'm talking about Dane! :) I'm having a very difficult time with our current situation and thought my mommy blogger buddies might have some magical advice for me! We booked a 3 day trip to Mexico with our friends Luke & Nicole. They have a son 10 weeks younger than Dane and we thought that we could make the decision later as to whether we would take the boys or not. We've made the decision not to take the boys partly due to the likelihood of them getting sick from the plane, but also because Dane just went on a trip and it took him a few days to adjust to his new surroundings and I don't want to put him through that again so soon. Believe me, when I think of sleeping in for 3 days and not having any responsiblity for 3 days...it sounds pretty appealing. However, I am with this child every day and have been for his entire existence. Every. Single. Day. I am so afraid I'm going to miss him like crazy! I know it's good for Cameron & I to have nights away from Dane and I know it's good for Dane to have nights away from us, however I didn't think I would have to make this decision until Dane was older. I know that might sound crazy, but I just never thought about leaving him except for once a year in April for Cameron's company trip because I don't have a choice - no kids allowed on that trip.
I'm not an idiot, I know other people can take care of Dane. There is no question about that, but I also know it's not the same for him. No matter who it is...grandmas, aunts, uncles, grandpas - no one is mom except mom. Also, separation anxiety is kicking into high gear for him right now. Many friends of ours say it's easier to leave them at Dane's age than when they're a little older and more aware. Am I being crazy? Cameron thinks so, but I know there is a major difference between being a father & being a mother and what we're comfortable with. I mean...I couldn't even leave him at the daycare center on vacation and it was literally 10 steps away from our room! Am I neurotic or was it this hard for every mother to leave their child overnight for the first time? Does it get easier?
We are not going until after Christmas, so he will be almost 11 months old. Guess it's hard no matter what!