Because this blog is a journal for me, as well as an update of what's going on in our world I am using it to purge my soul. I've done it before (just see "To Leave Him" a couple posts back). Therefore I feel this is the best place to go to lay my feelings out there to be judged by anyone who reads our blog! Barley & Roscoe...Awww...say the names and it brings a smile to my face. As I stood in the shower this morning with tears streaming down my face, trying to make a very tough decision all I could see was their sweet faces, tongues hangin' and tails a waggin'! I LOVE these two, as if they were children of mine. They both gave me something to baby and take care of during the years we longed for a baby of our own. They truly do make me happy, they make Cameron happy and they make Dane laugh deep belly laughs that no one else can. To even think of giving them up truly makes me cry. It's been discussed and I can't even get through the discussion without breaking down as they are very much a part of our family & our lives.
Which brings me to the reason for this post...it's been increasingly harder to deal with two rambunctious, active dogs with a little being in the house. I know I'm not being fair to them...they want to play and bark and run and they no longer have full freedom to do that here. Whenever we go out of town and return to pick them up at the dog sitter, the happiness on their faces is obvious. They no longer have that same happiness when they are home. It tears my heart out to discuss giving them up, but that is where we're at. I just can't help but feel our home would be more peaceful without them here. And I can't help but think they would be happier elsewhere.
Now I know I've unfairly judged dog owners in the past for giving up their precious pooches just because a little one arrived. I always thought "how could they??" but here I am, just another one in the bunch considering the same thing. So...judge me for this - go ahead - I deserve it! But also leave a comment to help me figure this jumbled mess out in my head. If I cry whenever we consider giving them up, am I really ready to give them up? Am I being unfair to these lovable creatures? What to do, what to do!!
2 comments:
I'm not sure what your backyard situation is now... or your house set up, but if you are considering a move it may be worth seeing if you can hold out a bit longer and see what other long term circumstances will allow you to do. Would the backyard be larger for their energy? Would you have a basement that maybe you could take them to if you needed a small amount of time?
No judgements here, I totally understand how it's difficult. Only other thing I would keep in mind is that sometime, and likely sooner than you think, Dane will be at an age it will be fabulous for him to have pets... Braden's preschool teacher actually asked me if I was able to get a pet for him at home since he loves animals so much, Chad is all for it, but like you, I'm not sure I can handle the additional chaos in this moment.
Sorry, that wasn't great advice, that was just my babble... take it for what it's worth. I wish you luck trying to figure out what what's best for you and your family.
I would try to keep them.Dogs are so good for kids to have around. Are they trained at all for like sitting and staying? I would try hard to make it work. I love having our dog. but i am not judgeing you at all. Understand if you can't make it work. good luck on what ever you do.Go you have a garage you could put them so they could play out there too to get some engery out.
kim
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